Hanging on...

First and foremost, I would like to deeply apologize to Abang Apai for my uncalled for sms question.

I'm hanging on by a thread and I'm just grasping at anything that comes to hand. I lost control for a while, but that is no excuse. I understand if you refuse to answer and keep quiet. I deserve it.

My situation is still the same. I guess the following song best describes it though it is by no means accurate. I need to accept that things have changed and there's not a thing I can or could have done to prevent it.

I just miss the old him so much...

How can I just let you walk away?
Just let you leave without a trace
When I stand here taking every breath with you
You’re the only one who really knew me at all

How can you just walk away from me?
When all I can do is watch you leave
Because we shared the laughter and the pain
And even shared the tears
You’re the only one who really knew me at all

So take look at me now
There’s just an empty space
There’s nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face

So take look at me now
There’s just an empty space
And you coming back to me is against the odds
And that’s what I’ve got to face

I wish I can get you to turn around
Turn around and see me cry
There’s so much I need to say to you
So many reasons why
You’re the only one who really knew me at all

So take look at me now
There’s just an empty space
There’s nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face

So take look at me now
There’s just an empty space
But to wait for you is all I can do
And that’s what I’ve got to face

Take a good look at me now
Because I’ll still be standing here
And you coming back to me is against all odds
And that’s a chance I’ve got to take