Hello?

My graduation present, back in the year 2000, was a mobile phone.

Words cannot express the joy of finally having a means of communicating with beloved friends and family, to all practical purposes, anytime anywhere.

12 long years has passed and, though I have dwelled on it before, I am seriously reconsidering the value of having the mobile phone.

One cannot deny how convenient it is though. My dear old mother herself would not willingly give up her mobile phone now even as she struggles to grasp the workings of new technology.

But despite the convenience, despite the fact that we are reachable, my mobile phone may remain silent for more than 48 hours at a stretch.
I believe the record for me is around 2 weeks.

And, sadly, it is not for lack of keeping in touch on my part.
It is doubly sad for me when I contact people I care about and they hardly ever return the text or call.

It seems that in this age of mass communication, communication itself is being taken for granted.

Or maybe it's just me.

Because I know for a fact that they do keep in touch with others.

Perhaps I will never be the kind of person to whom those I care about would reach out to just for the heck of it.

Perhaps they do not share the same level of camaraderie that I feel towards them.

However, the mobile phone has insidiously become a sort of necessary evil in this life.

Which is why my mobile phone is here to stay

no matter how sad it makes me feel...

So I set fire to the rain and I threw us into the flames

where I felt something died because I knew it was the last time.

Let it burn...

...

Pada perjumpaan kami yang pertama

yang aku anggap sebenar-benar perjumpaan

lepak makan berbual bersama

malamnya bergerimis...

Hampir sama suasananya seperti perjumpaan malam kelmarin

tapi situasi kami telah amat berbeza.

Dia pernah menyatakan bahawa aku ini sahabat.

Salah satu ciri seorang sahabat itu adalah menyayangi sahabatnya melebihi dirinya sendiri.

Seorang sahabat itu pasti mahu yang terbaik untuk sahabatnya.

Seorang sahabat itu pasti mahu melindungi sahabatnya daripada segala mara bahaya...

...termasuklah menjauhkannya daripada dosa.

Tapi aku

bukan sahaja gagal menegah

malah

menyokongnya dalam dosa.

Aku tak layak jadi sahabatnya...

Kalau begitu

siapa aku ini baginya?

Harapan

Bicara mimpi itu mengheretku ke dasar

Gelap tangannya menggapai tanganku

Dan munculnya dirimu di pinggir laman itu

Hangatmu menyambut ku kembali

Dan ku mengerti mengapa masih berdiri

Hadirnya siang berteman mentari

Dan ku bersama bintang malammu mencari kasihku

Dan angin kan memanggil

Bagai ada musafir hadir dan pergi tiada berjanji

Mungkin seketika ku merasa cintanya

Bagai dibelai mimpi sempurna

Dan taman ini tak bererti dan bersemi

Tiada indah tanpamu di sini

Dan ku jejaki walaupun hanya secebis kasihmu

Harapan

Harapan menjadi layu

Ingin ku bahagia bersama

Menjadi kenangan memburu impian masa kita

Hatiku meratap setinggi gunung

Pasti ku mencari bintangnya

Menjadi cahaya menyinar impian hidup kita selamanya

No Shades of Gray

'Cause I want it all

Or nothing at all

There's nowhere left to fall

When you've reached the bottom

It's now or never

Is it all?

Or are we just friends?

Is this how it ends?

With a simple telephone call

You leave me here

With nothing at all...

I lost one by posting the question.

Now, it seems, I've lost another when the question was posted to me.

I thought this life was made of shades of gray.
Apparently, there are areas that adamantly remain black and white.

Will we heal? Will they come back? Will we have another chance? Should we have another chance?
Damn! I'm just too sick and tired to think of it right now...

Sebastian?

Watching the Hobbit, there was one particular moment which jarred my mind.

I just can't get over it- Radagast referring to the the hedgehog by the name 'Sebastian'!

Sebastian?

With all those exotic outlandish names being mentioned throughout the entire movie, how in the world did 'Sebastian' make the ranks?!