Fears & frustrations...

Christina Perri's A Thousand Years is not a new song. I hear it over the office radio at least every other day.

Somehow, it hit me rather forcefully tonight. I suddenly felt tears slide down my cheeks.

I miss that person very much. Maybe too much?

It hurts, damn it, and there will hardly be any succour.

Thoughts like 'is this worth it?' and 'what the heck am I doing?' keep chasing each other in my head.

I understand the reason for hardly keeping in touch. However, recent events are making me wonder if I am being led on as a possible outlet for desire.

Is that desire due to love or is that the real reason for loving?

I don't know. I have no way of gauging...