Monday, May 16, 2011

Marahkah aku?

Ku renung dalam-dalam peristiwa tadi...

Janji untuk bertemu
dimungkiri
seumpama perkara enteng

Telefon bimbitnya tak kecapaian
Menunggu keputusannya
di Masjid Jamek
dari awal pagi hingga lewat petang
mungkin bukan satu tindakan yang bijak bagiku

Tapi itu salah aku sendiri semata-mata
Dia tidak pun meminta aku berbuat begitu

Cuma
aku yang mahu menunjukkan kesungguhanku kepadanya
aku yang mahu dia tahu aku sanggup berusaha untuk bersamanya
dan ku tak mahu dia tertunggu

Marahkah aku?
Ya
memang ada rasa marah
Namun begitu pantas redanya
terutamanya setelah dia bersungguh-sungguh meminta maaf

Marahkah aku?
Tidak lagi
Lenyap sudah segala

Yang tinggal
hanya sedih
dan rindu...

7 comments:

i'm shin... i'm inesen said...

:(

please.. seluruh makhluk kat muka bumi ni.. jgn wat ari shin bersedih.. he too inesen.. mcm shin *nanges

Snuze said...

Huh. How kind of you. I'd leave after an hour (unless I got a confirmed message to please wait a little longer).

I think it's time for you to jual mahal sikit, darling. Don't let this person take you for granted. Power balance is an important factor in any relationship in order to avoid resentment and unnecessary pain and anger.

naz said...

I agree with snuze... Sometimes people take for granted things that they can easily get, they only regret it once it is gone and never come back....

Sorry, to just barge in :p

Ri said...

shin:
tima kasih. mgkn ini balasan atas layanan ri pada shin dan beberapa org lain sblm ni..

snuze and naz:
sisters, you give sound advice. in fact, another friend advised me to do the very same thing at the time. thank you :)
i have my reasons for doing it, though it may seem illogically incomprehensible.
i appreciate the advice so do keep them coming.
one day, there will be an occasion for me to take it and for that, may Allah bless you and ease your every burden. aamiin.

naz said...

It's owkey. It's your life, u know all the reason of why your are doing it, don't justify, people can give u advice but they can't force you to accept. Just hope for the best.... I wish u well. (",)

i'm shin... i'm inesen said...

ari : no la.. i'm still your shin.. forever~

iyllienaz said...

hey..i read a few of your older post..and almost all of them were sad entry..be strong bro..gembira itu nikmat and sedih also nikmat..Banyak2 bersyukur atas kurniaanNya, sambil berusaha utk improve keadaan..=)