Suzainur said...
"Say, did you ever get to watch the LOTR trilogy marathon? That was challenging, my friend! Just taking time out for toi toi break, prayers and scarfing down food with eyes glued on the pretty elfy. By the time it's over, your eyes have glazed over and your mind is still somewhere over Mordor."
Hmm... are your eyes glazed because your mind's in Mordor or is it glazed because you mind's in a bedroom with the 'pretty elfy'?
Muahahaha!
Thanks for your comments and support Sue! Didn't realized that you actually read all this crap. ;)
Friday, December 30, 2005
Monday, December 26, 2005
Tiada Tangis Lagi...
Sudah terlalu lama ingin kunukilkan lirik lagu ini ke dalam blog picisanku. Sekarang kurasakan terlalu amat cocok situasi dengan puisi yang dilagukan itu. Maka terimalah lagu dendangan saudari Nurzila Aminudin ini. Andainya ada kesilapan dari segi senikata, kumohon diperbetulkan oleh para pembaca sekelian. Mungkin suatu hari nanti aku akan berpeluang mendendangkannya secara live untuk kalian…
Engkau jadi kenangan dalam hati
Terlalu lama engkau pergi
Angin masih begitu
Alur nan biru
Memayungi taman kalbu
Kiambang menjadi lambang
Kau bagai bayang-bayang
Kini kuterbuang
Di danau tenang selalu
Seolah tidak tahu gelora di hatiku
Selama hayat ini kusimpan rahsia hati
Kukenang masa nan lalu
Terasa pilu
Ke mana harus ku mengadu
Kiambang menjadi lambang
Kau bagai bayang-bayang
Kini kuterbuang
Di danau tenang selalu
Seolah tidak tahu gelora di hatiku
Selama hayat ini kusimpan rahsia hati
Di sini kuberdiri
Tiada tangis lagi
Engkau jadi kenangan dalam hati
Terlalu lama engkau pergi
Angin masih begitu
Alur nan biru
Memayungi taman kalbu
Kiambang menjadi lambang
Kau bagai bayang-bayang
Kini kuterbuang
Di danau tenang selalu
Seolah tidak tahu gelora di hatiku
Selama hayat ini kusimpan rahsia hati
Kukenang masa nan lalu
Terasa pilu
Ke mana harus ku mengadu
Kiambang menjadi lambang
Kau bagai bayang-bayang
Kini kuterbuang
Di danau tenang selalu
Seolah tidak tahu gelora di hatiku
Selama hayat ini kusimpan rahsia hati
Di sini kuberdiri
Tiada tangis lagi
Some ‘promises’ should never have been kept…
I went to watch The Promise last night and it would have been a truly great movie if only it wasn’t so ridiculously presented!
If one manages to sift through all that chaff, the story is actually quite good and the characterization is deep and full of meanings. All the characters: the proud General Quang Ming, Kun Lun who’s on a journey of self discovery, a melancholic and torn Qing Cheng, the enigmatic though empathic General Wu Han and Que Lang the traitorous coward, were well defined. Please give a hand to the cast and Director, Chen Kai Ge, for managing it so well.
For instance, I explain to you this one scene between Que Lang and Kun Lun. Que Lang was telling Kun Lun that to he needed to learn how to run faster than Time itself. So Kun Lun ran to show Que Lang that he could run really fast. But Que Lang merely said that what Kun Lun was doing was fleeing and that to properly run, one must know what one’s heart’s desire is. Only then can he say that he is running. That means that to run, one must be heading towards some goal for if not one will simply be fleeing without purpose. Truly poetic and profound.
However, the rest left much to be desired. Some fight scenes, which were meant to be fantastically awe inspiring, brought the audience out in laughter. It’s disconcerting to watch someone fight so seriously for their lives while the whole theater was in a fit of mirth. For example, the bull chase scene and the part where Kun Lun fought to defend General Quang Ming from Que Lang (in a banana plantation of all places!).
And what’s the deal with the Goddess Man Shen??? That, my dear, is a joke and not a hairdo! The makeup together with the flowing dress and scarf would’ve been enough to present the scene as otherworldly.
By amplifying the scenes in such seemingly minute ways, the Director had managed to turn something fantastic into something ridiculous. Mr. Chen should have learnt that lesson by observing Hero, which bordered on the ridiculous but was somehow saved by the artistic presentation and the gravity of it's scenes.
Overall, I found that the movie was not really worth my RM9.
If one manages to sift through all that chaff, the story is actually quite good and the characterization is deep and full of meanings. All the characters: the proud General Quang Ming, Kun Lun who’s on a journey of self discovery, a melancholic and torn Qing Cheng, the enigmatic though empathic General Wu Han and Que Lang the traitorous coward, were well defined. Please give a hand to the cast and Director, Chen Kai Ge, for managing it so well.
For instance, I explain to you this one scene between Que Lang and Kun Lun. Que Lang was telling Kun Lun that to he needed to learn how to run faster than Time itself. So Kun Lun ran to show Que Lang that he could run really fast. But Que Lang merely said that what Kun Lun was doing was fleeing and that to properly run, one must know what one’s heart’s desire is. Only then can he say that he is running. That means that to run, one must be heading towards some goal for if not one will simply be fleeing without purpose. Truly poetic and profound.
However, the rest left much to be desired. Some fight scenes, which were meant to be fantastically awe inspiring, brought the audience out in laughter. It’s disconcerting to watch someone fight so seriously for their lives while the whole theater was in a fit of mirth. For example, the bull chase scene and the part where Kun Lun fought to defend General Quang Ming from Que Lang (in a banana plantation of all places!).
And what’s the deal with the Goddess Man Shen??? That, my dear, is a joke and not a hairdo! The makeup together with the flowing dress and scarf would’ve been enough to present the scene as otherworldly.
By amplifying the scenes in such seemingly minute ways, the Director had managed to turn something fantastic into something ridiculous. Mr. Chen should have learnt that lesson by observing Hero, which bordered on the ridiculous but was somehow saved by the artistic presentation and the gravity of it's scenes.
Overall, I found that the movie was not really worth my RM9.
Thursday, December 22, 2005
Dia...
Mata ku mengekori Wira berplet WJH7743 itu sehingga ia hilang ditelan selekoh. Adakah Dia akan hilang dari hidupku semudah itu juga?
Begitu ceria Dia melayanku senja tadi, beserta senyuman dan lawak jenakanya. Berbeza sungguh dengan sikap acuh tak acuhnya semasa aku datang beraya ke rumahnya pertengahan November lepas sehinggakan sikapnya itu ditegur oleh bapanya.
Tetapi itulah Dia: ada kala hangat dan ada kalanya sedingin salju. Walaubagaimanapun keadaannya, aku sudi menerima Dia seadanya kerana dia adalah Dia.
Aku akui, Dia memang teristimewa bagiku: sukina-hito, taisatsuna-hito, kalau mengikut istilah Jepun. Sayangku terhadapnya tidak marak menyala sebagaimana dengan cinta pertamaku mahupun cinta terakhirku. Namun ia kekal membara hingga kini, menghangatkan suasana.
Sejak kami bersama-sama mula mengharungi tahun SPM, telah kusedari bahawa Dialah insan yang bakal aku cintai sehingga akhir nanti walaupun ketika itu bukan sedikit bilangannya yang mencuri perhatianku.
Walau jelas kuketahui perasaanku kepadanya, perasaannya terhadapku begitu kabur. Seperti kaum sejenisnya yang lain, Dia begitu pandai memendam rasa. Namun apabila kuperhatikan interaksinya bersama keluarga, aku tahu Dia mampu mempamerkan kemesraan walaupun Dia begitu reserved apabila bersamaku. Kadangkala timbul juga kemesraan itu dalam layanannya terhadapku dan selalunya pada masa yang amat tidak kusangka. Saat-saat begitulah yang amat berharga bagi diriku.
Tapi kenapa kini baru ingin kunukilkan semua ini?
Kerana Dia kini telah ditunangkan dengan insan pilihan ibubapanya. Kerana Dia akan memulakan kehidupan rumahtangganya pada pertengahan tahun 2006 yang akan datang ini.
Telah hampir muktamad kini yang Dia tidak akan menjadi milikku walaupun telah kuketahui hakikat ini dari awal perhubungan kami. Giliranku untuk menyembunyikan rasa telah tiba.
Zahir kau lihat bukan segala-gala
Bibir tersenyum menutup jiwa yang duka
Namun begitu, aku tetap gembira untuk dirinya. Semoga bertambah ceria hidupnya dan terhindar dari kesunyian yang abadi sebagaimana yang kualami. Aku akan sentiasa mendoakan Dia bahagia dunia akhirat.
Begitu ceria Dia melayanku senja tadi, beserta senyuman dan lawak jenakanya. Berbeza sungguh dengan sikap acuh tak acuhnya semasa aku datang beraya ke rumahnya pertengahan November lepas sehinggakan sikapnya itu ditegur oleh bapanya.
Tetapi itulah Dia: ada kala hangat dan ada kalanya sedingin salju. Walaubagaimanapun keadaannya, aku sudi menerima Dia seadanya kerana dia adalah Dia.
Aku akui, Dia memang teristimewa bagiku: sukina-hito, taisatsuna-hito, kalau mengikut istilah Jepun. Sayangku terhadapnya tidak marak menyala sebagaimana dengan cinta pertamaku mahupun cinta terakhirku. Namun ia kekal membara hingga kini, menghangatkan suasana.
Sejak kami bersama-sama mula mengharungi tahun SPM, telah kusedari bahawa Dialah insan yang bakal aku cintai sehingga akhir nanti walaupun ketika itu bukan sedikit bilangannya yang mencuri perhatianku.
Walau jelas kuketahui perasaanku kepadanya, perasaannya terhadapku begitu kabur. Seperti kaum sejenisnya yang lain, Dia begitu pandai memendam rasa. Namun apabila kuperhatikan interaksinya bersama keluarga, aku tahu Dia mampu mempamerkan kemesraan walaupun Dia begitu reserved apabila bersamaku. Kadangkala timbul juga kemesraan itu dalam layanannya terhadapku dan selalunya pada masa yang amat tidak kusangka. Saat-saat begitulah yang amat berharga bagi diriku.
Tapi kenapa kini baru ingin kunukilkan semua ini?
Kerana Dia kini telah ditunangkan dengan insan pilihan ibubapanya. Kerana Dia akan memulakan kehidupan rumahtangganya pada pertengahan tahun 2006 yang akan datang ini.
Telah hampir muktamad kini yang Dia tidak akan menjadi milikku walaupun telah kuketahui hakikat ini dari awal perhubungan kami. Giliranku untuk menyembunyikan rasa telah tiba.
Zahir kau lihat bukan segala-gala
Bibir tersenyum menutup jiwa yang duka
Namun begitu, aku tetap gembira untuk dirinya. Semoga bertambah ceria hidupnya dan terhindar dari kesunyian yang abadi sebagaimana yang kualami. Aku akan sentiasa mendoakan Dia bahagia dunia akhirat.
Friday, December 16, 2005
Cycle of the Emotion
When I have to force myself to do my favourite things, I know that ‘that time’ has come again.
It is the time when I need to raise my interest simply to read an interesting story book or muster the energy just to watch my favourite anime. It is the time when I have all these plans in mind but just can’t seem to get around to executing them.
But it is also surprisingly the time when I listen to the most number of songs, thinking of the connection each melody has to a particular event in my life. Just listening and singing along, feeling way down.
If possible, I’d love to just take a really long leave and sleep these coming days away. But I know that that is not possible because I don’t have 3 months plus worth of leave. So I trudge on with my life hoping for the day when this mood shall lift and pass.
I really hope it would be soon. I’m not sure how much longer I can endure these cycles of really deep depressions that have been plaguing me all my life. I fervently pray that I will be prevented from doing anything humongously stupid that may further affect my battered soul.
It is the time when I need to raise my interest simply to read an interesting story book or muster the energy just to watch my favourite anime. It is the time when I have all these plans in mind but just can’t seem to get around to executing them.
But it is also surprisingly the time when I listen to the most number of songs, thinking of the connection each melody has to a particular event in my life. Just listening and singing along, feeling way down.
If possible, I’d love to just take a really long leave and sleep these coming days away. But I know that that is not possible because I don’t have 3 months plus worth of leave. So I trudge on with my life hoping for the day when this mood shall lift and pass.
I really hope it would be soon. I’m not sure how much longer I can endure these cycles of really deep depressions that have been plaguing me all my life. I fervently pray that I will be prevented from doing anything humongously stupid that may further affect my battered soul.
Senja Nan Merah
Haruskah kita mencari pada gunung dan lurah
Liku-liku curam insani
Haruskah kita mencari puncak mengilau cahaya
Dalam hidup seribu warna
Di bawah terdiri ungkapan
Pada sebuah wajah yang lara kesepian
Haruskah kita mencari suatu senja dalam kepedihan
Haruskah kita mencari dalam senja begini
Kembali kita bertemu
Haruskah kita mencari dalam simpati wangi
Kembali kita bersama
Membilang kenangan yang abadi
Bagai menunggu mentari senja
Menghilang perlahan-lahan disebalik awan yang merah
Liku-liku curam insani
Haruskah kita mencari puncak mengilau cahaya
Dalam hidup seribu warna
Di bawah terdiri ungkapan
Pada sebuah wajah yang lara kesepian
Haruskah kita mencari suatu senja dalam kepedihan
Haruskah kita mencari dalam senja begini
Kembali kita bertemu
Haruskah kita mencari dalam simpati wangi
Kembali kita bersama
Membilang kenangan yang abadi
Bagai menunggu mentari senja
Menghilang perlahan-lahan disebalik awan yang merah
Thursday, December 15, 2005
Henka III
"What??? Pauline resigned?!"
I looked at the colleague who brought me the news with disbelief. But it was true. And with that, a great upheaval began to shake the core of my workplace.
With Pauline leaving so suddenly, the Big Boss, Deputies and Section Heads had urgently met and decided to put the backup plan into immediate effect. Two other colleagues and I were moved into our respective places beginning 5 December 2005 without as much as a ‘by your leave’.
While at home, the situation was getting worse.
Continued…
I looked at the colleague who brought me the news with disbelief. But it was true. And with that, a great upheaval began to shake the core of my workplace.
With Pauline leaving so suddenly, the Big Boss, Deputies and Section Heads had urgently met and decided to put the backup plan into immediate effect. Two other colleagues and I were moved into our respective places beginning 5 December 2005 without as much as a ‘by your leave’.
While at home, the situation was getting worse.
Continued…
Monday, December 12, 2005
Henka II
It all began with the most innocent of proposals. One fine evening, the Deputy Boss in charge of the store approached me and asked if I’d like to learn about all the tricks of her trade.
I did not commit myself by saying yes outright because I was currently engrossed in a project to smooth out customer supply with my current unit. So she left it at that. It took me slightly more than two weeks to decide that I was interested and that it would be a truly wonderful learning opportunity for me.
For further confirmation, I turned to Big Boss for advice. Surprisingly, he was aware of the situation. In fact, it was he who had asked his two Deputies to choose a backup since all three Bosses has about 5 to 6 working years left at most.
He told me I should take it as an honour to be chosen and he was glad that it was me. I was shocked out of my mind. It was then that I realized the gravity of the Deputy Boss’ proposal. The responsibility was huge! I wanted to reject the offer but having indicated my interest to Big Boss, I was obliged to accept. In addition to that, I really did want to learn.
That afternoon, I sent an email to indicate my agreement to learn all that the Deputy Boss could teach me. And thus my education began...
Continued…
I did not commit myself by saying yes outright because I was currently engrossed in a project to smooth out customer supply with my current unit. So she left it at that. It took me slightly more than two weeks to decide that I was interested and that it would be a truly wonderful learning opportunity for me.
For further confirmation, I turned to Big Boss for advice. Surprisingly, he was aware of the situation. In fact, it was he who had asked his two Deputies to choose a backup since all three Bosses has about 5 to 6 working years left at most.
He told me I should take it as an honour to be chosen and he was glad that it was me. I was shocked out of my mind. It was then that I realized the gravity of the Deputy Boss’ proposal. The responsibility was huge! I wanted to reject the offer but having indicated my interest to Big Boss, I was obliged to accept. In addition to that, I really did want to learn.
That afternoon, I sent an email to indicate my agreement to learn all that the Deputy Boss could teach me. And thus my education began...
Continued…
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
Henka
My world is at the brink of change. Everything is extremely fluid, nothing is certain and anything could happen.
I find myself still in denial over the situation because my very nature abhors even the slightest change in my immediate environment unless I have been well prepared for it. Even prepared, I will still hate it.
But the only constant thing in this world is change. Therefore, change I must. I just hope I’m able to roll with the punches really well or I risk being knocked out in the very first round.
Continued…
I find myself still in denial over the situation because my very nature abhors even the slightest change in my immediate environment unless I have been well prepared for it. Even prepared, I will still hate it.
But the only constant thing in this world is change. Therefore, change I must. I just hope I’m able to roll with the punches really well or I risk being knocked out in the very first round.
Continued…
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