All it took was just one silly sms to disrupt someone’s life…
… and the effect took away one of the most important person in mine. As I write this, the reality has not yet begun to sink in. I don’t feel anything. But I dread the moment when the shock wears off.
As I take step after plodding step through life, I am now bereft of one more support. Therefore the steps I am taking now feel that much heavier.
He came back after stepping out of my life 9 long years ago and now he’s gone once again, more permanently it seems. In the short time that we’re together, he’d done so much for me just by being there because he’s one of the few people who truly understands and accepts me for what I am.
I know I’ll miss him so much, but what’s done is done. The fault was mine. I finally crossed the line and it’s the breaking point of our friendship. I realize that his own life is full of challenges and he doesn’t need more burden added to all that. Therefore I can admit that I gladly let him go though it really saddens me.
Everything happens for a reason. After all that I have experienced, I do believe that what has occurred is most likely the best thing to happen to us though I don’t think I’ll ever see how I’ll benefit from this second breakup with my favourite ‘big brother’.
I do have such a knack for spoiling all the friendship I have managed to cultivate. I think I’m going to give friendship a rest for a time and just go through life on my own the best that I am able.
As my few last words, I’d like to once again wish you and family all the best in this world and the hereafter. Apai nii-san, subete wo hontou ni sumimasen deshita. Sayonara, nii-san…
… and the effect took away one of the most important person in mine. As I write this, the reality has not yet begun to sink in. I don’t feel anything. But I dread the moment when the shock wears off.
As I take step after plodding step through life, I am now bereft of one more support. Therefore the steps I am taking now feel that much heavier.
He came back after stepping out of my life 9 long years ago and now he’s gone once again, more permanently it seems. In the short time that we’re together, he’d done so much for me just by being there because he’s one of the few people who truly understands and accepts me for what I am.
I know I’ll miss him so much, but what’s done is done. The fault was mine. I finally crossed the line and it’s the breaking point of our friendship. I realize that his own life is full of challenges and he doesn’t need more burden added to all that. Therefore I can admit that I gladly let him go though it really saddens me.
Everything happens for a reason. After all that I have experienced, I do believe that what has occurred is most likely the best thing to happen to us though I don’t think I’ll ever see how I’ll benefit from this second breakup with my favourite ‘big brother’.
I do have such a knack for spoiling all the friendship I have managed to cultivate. I think I’m going to give friendship a rest for a time and just go through life on my own the best that I am able.
As my few last words, I’d like to once again wish you and family all the best in this world and the hereafter. Apai nii-san, subete wo hontou ni sumimasen deshita. Sayonara, nii-san…
1 comment:
The power of good bye is better than the power of ignorance, at least we know that he or she is leaving us.. we don't have to wait for nothing... it is better that way.. be strong to go a day...
regards, Jaez...
p/s.. you know how to speak Japanese.,. I am astonished.. that is so cool..
Post a Comment