Keputusanku

"Engkaulah cinta yang selama ini aku cari


Ku relakan jiwa untuk menjadi penghuni dalam sangkar hatimu

Kerana engkaulah nadi yang menghidupkan aku, yang mampu melarutkan setiap sepi hatiku


Akan ku biarkan mati hatiku selamanya sehingga kau datang membangunkan aku"

Yang mungkin sampai bila pun tidak akan jadi nyata
namun bulat sudah tekadku
biarlah ini yang terakhir


Foto ihsan Dr. Mashkur dengan Samsung Galaxy-nya
Petikan berkaitan daripada lirik lagu Relakan Jiwa

Belacan vs. Keretapi

Blacan-ae tipuh, munggi-nae BLEKKK!

Nang kono keretapi berlanggaran, munggi-nae *ting

Berderai tawa kami ketika arwah Didi menyebut "perumpamaan" tersebut.

Walaupun pastinya kurang tepat sebutan dan lahjah dari segi Jawa Malaysia baku, sudah cukup real bagi kami lagi menggelikan hati.

Maksudnya lebih kurang, apabila belacan jatuh di depan kita bagaikan kuat benar bunyinya, manakala bunyi keretapi yang berlanggar nun jauh di sana berbunyi sayup hampir tak kedengaran.

  vs.

Perumpamaan tersebut menggambarkan bagaimana masalah yang kita hadapi tampak begitu besar pada pandangan kita.

Sedangkan orang lain mungkin sedang menghadapi dugaan dan cabaran yang jauh lebih besar dan mungkin memerlukan sokongan / bantuan kita tetapi tidak kita hiraukan.

Terimbau kembali zaman silam, 20 lebih tahun yang lepas- mengenangkan betapa selfish-nya aku ketika itu.

Sedih.

N & R

Dalam renyai hujan, jemputan yang ku tunggu-tunggu tiba akhirnya.

Kebasahan.

Bagai ditangisi.

Tangisan gembirakah? Tangisan dukakah?

Mungkin kedua-duanya.

Setinggi-tinggi tahniah ku ucapkan buat N & R!

R, memang telah lama aku pasti kau lah pilihannya.

Dengan sepenuh hati aku doakan agar kamu berdua sentiasa kekal bahagia dalam keadaan sihat sejahtera dunia akhirat.

Moga dihindarkan sejauh-jauhnya daripada qada yang telah ku lalui.

Drama at the Masjid

Mr. Chairman got a real dressing down at Taraawih yesterday.

In public :o

I guess he took matters into his own hands one time too many.

N

I received news yesterday evening.

N is getting married.

Ureshii desu. Shiawase mo, kanashimi mo.

Di sini kami bertemu.

Dan dia menjadi salah seorang kesayangan aku

yang amat, amat aku sayang.

Walaupun hanya aku sahaja yang rasa.

Selalunya aku dipergunakan mungkin.

Peduli apa aku?

Moga dengan ini dia tenang sentiasa

bahagia selamanya.

Di samping si dia yang menjadi pilihan hati.

Big Screen Breakdown: Dawn of Justice

Most viewers are or will be sorely disappointed by this movie...

...but I LOVED it!!! Go figure!

DO EXPECT

A proper laying down of background stories.
This is what will leave most viewers bored to the death for the first 90 minutes of screening.
To me, it is interesting and gives depth to each character as the story develops.

Some wonderful though understated acting.
The actors may not seem to be "doing" much but the effort it takes to make such casual scenes... Hats off to the cast and crew!
You'd really love to hate Jesse Eisenberg's characterisation of Luthor.

Beautiful design and details
Okay, most people wouldn't even bother about this but I am interested :P


DO FORGET ABOUT

The fight being the story.
As opposed to Marvel's flashy action packed approach, DC's recent remake of it's superhero movies is heading for the dark and gritty path.
Whatever action that is in the movie will usually be in support of the narrative.

A complicated storyline.
Straightforward, even predictable but it gets the job done.


This story managed to catch and hold my interest so well, which is one of my personal indicators for a good movie.
I completely forgot that I had a watch.
I stoically bore the incessant pressure on my bladder towards the end.

I would give it 4 out of 5 stars.
The storyline and storytelling could still be much improved.

Anyhow, I enjoyed it tremendously!

(photo by courtesy of UK Man's Lifestyle Blog)

Some Thoughts on Open Sea Swimming

Me, trying to get in a decent selfie right out there among the waves...

...and failing miserably! Haha!

One important thing I've learned about swimming in the open sea is that the journey out is usually smooth sailing, but returning is a much different matter entirely.

The current and the exhaustion really gets to you at the end point.

And the frustration of seeing the beach right there, just a mere kilometer and a half away, and never getting any nearer to it!

Oh, man! That right there is a serious test of your will!

Another important thing I've learned is that I'm just a so so swimmer.
I may have reached my limit and may never be strong enough to overcome the currents in future.

But I'm finding it so addictive!

Selimut tetangga...

...yang membalut tubuh kala kedinginan.

Mungkinkah itu aku?

Mungkin patut aku terima hakikat yang aku hanya "the go-to guy"?

Orang yang boleh mereka harap untuk menemani kala keperluan namun bukan pilihan mereka untuk sehidup semati?

Tapi ada kalanya, hakikat itu teramat sukar untuk diterima.

Tolonglah sambut tangan yang aku hulurkan ini.
Tolonglah.

Aku keletihan menahan perasaan...

Langit

"I can see the sky...

birds are flying"

Hanya dengan bait lagu tersebut, dia berjaya memecahkan empangan kenangan serta perasaanku.

Dan ianya seperti tiada pernah ada jurang masa antara pertemuan dan persaudaraan kami.

Langkawi

kami datang!

"Kajang Pak Malau kajang berlipat, kajang hamba mengkuang layu

Dagang tuan dagang bertempat, dagang hamba menumpang lalu"

Sebagaimana aku menumpang padanya...

Apa-apa pun, kalian patut cuba mencari Warung Nasi Dagang Pak Malau ini, kalau tidak silap saya di Jalan Ulu Melaka menuju Makam Mahsuri.

Hanya dibuka dari pagi hingga jam 2.00 petang (Jumaat cuti), disamping menjamu selera atau sekadar minum-minum, suasana dan pemandangannya asyik sekali...

Penempatan di Pantai Chenang ini sangat berbaloi.

Moga kekal kualiti perkhidmatan mereka di masa-masa akan datang.

 Gunung Machinchang kini bawah pengurusan baru.

Banyak tarikan baru yang ditawarkan kepada pengunjung tapi buat masa ini, masih banyak kerja-kerja pengubahsuaian serta penyelenggaraan yang sedang berlangsung.

"Terbang

Terbang tinggi

Walau tanah di kaki kan ku cari langit"

 Pemandangan dari Warung Nasi Dagang Pak Malau.

Jika anda berhajat untuk mandi-manda dengan puasnya di Tanjung Rhu, silalah berkunjung semasa air pasang (biasanya antara pagi hingga tengahari).

Petang-petang begini, kalian boleh berjalan hingga setengah kilometer ke tengah laut dan air masih di paras pinggang sahaja.

 Pantai Chenang lebih sibuk dengan pelbagai aktiviti pantai.

Jika mahu bersukaria, inilah pantai yang lebih menyeronokkan.

Dengan sekelip mata, percutian kami berakhir.

3 hari 2 malam adalah terlalu suntuk tapi aku sangat hargai setiap detik yang berlalu.

Terima kasih ...

22 Day Lifestyle Program: RESULTS

All right, folks! As promised, here are my stats!

AT MY BEST (~23-25 years of age)

Total body weight = 65 kilograms / 143 pounds

Body Mass Index = 21.593

Waist size (circumference through the bellybutton) = 74 centimeters / 29 inches

Body fat = 9.81%

22 DAYS AGO (37 years of age, going on 38)

Total body weight = 80 kilograms / 168 pounds

Body Mass Index = 25.247

Waist size (circumference through the bellybutton) = 95 centimeters / 38 inches

Body fat = 26.54%

TODAY

Total body weight = 76 kilograms / 143 pounds

Body Mass Index = 21.593

Waist size (circumference through the bellybutton) = 86 centimeters / 34 inches

Body fat = 18.60%

Conclusion

I was hoping to get a clear unobstructed view of my d**k but there is still substantial amount of pooch in the way. There's also still too much love on my handles.

However, there IS positive overall loss after 22 days despite being unable to very strictly adhere to the program!

Not much loss in weight or waist size, but Body Fat Percentage down by 7.9%- that's major enough for me!

Therefore I'm going to continue this lifestyle with some modifications :)

I want my body to be 23 years old again!

22/22

Day 22!!!

Bedtime :

1.30am

I know, I know! But it was exercise day and we had really late dinner...

Breakfast :

24g whey protein + 2 tablespoon chia seed + 1 tablespoon wheatgrass powder (not on list) + 2 tablespoon olive oil (not on list) + 4oz water

Getting really tired of the protein shake :p haha! Once it's finished, I will avoid buying more for quite some time.

Lunch (1.40pm)

6 medium chicken breasts (some fried, some roasted) + 2 fried eggs with 1 tablespoon ground nuts and a bit of sambal + 2 medium bowls of laksa gravy with the vegetable condiments (cucumber, lettuce)

Oh, Lord! It's our annual year end lunch celebration at the office and I forgot how much "fun" it can become :(

Exercise :

20 minutes walk to personalized music

This is too mild to contra today's food intake :p but it was all I had time for...

Dinner (9.30pm) :

1 set Nasi Lemak + 1 small bowl labu air fried + 6-7 scoops briyani rice with chicken briyani gravy + 1 large bowl ice cream

I overate :( even for a cheat meal! This whole day was just me, splurging!

Detoxification :

Skip Epsom salt bath again!

Admittedly, I went overboard with today's meals as well skimping on the exercise and skipping detox.

Whatever may be, this is the official final day of the lifestyle program.

I will be measuring the results later today so we can determine how effective it has been.

If the results are positive, I will be continuing in a more moderate manner up to the forty second day to make sure the behaviour sticks for the rest of my life!

21/22

Twenty first day with 1 more day to program's end!

Bedtime :

12.10am

Much, much better timing. It would be great if I could keep it up!

Breakfast :

24g whey protein + 2 tablespoon chia seed + 1 tablespoon wheatgrass powder (not on list) + 2 tablespoon olive oil (not on list) + 4oz water

Really thick shake and a bitch to clean the blender :p

Lunch (2.00pm)

1 telur bungkus + 1 serving chicken and mixed vegetables soup

Meal was more or less the usual time but the hunger pangs prior to it were quite intense.

I wonder if it was because the food was already there and giving off these delicious smells :p

Exercise :

35 minutes swim, then 1 hour dance exercise session

I could do it! Amaze-balls! Both were high activity sessions and I managed to gasp through...

Dinner (late, 11.30pm) :

Strawberry Fields Black Pepper Steak with extra salad

My body handled this late, late dinner quite well. Hunger pangs were absent.

Also had a spoonful of acquaintance's Thai Fried Rice just to find out how weird it tasted, which was really neither hear nor there and all of spicy!

Detoxification :

Skip Epsom salt bath today!

I was imagining the boundless energy mentioned in the program book as a bouncy, cheery feeling.

It's only today that I understand what it really means.

To still be able to go full throttle at dance exercise despite the swim earlier was amazing!

20/22

Twentienth day with 2 more days to program's end!

Bedtime :

1.10am

Better, but still unable to identify the cue. Hope to turn in before midnight every night.

Breakfast :

24g whey protein + 2 tablespoon chia seed + 1 tablespoon wheatgrass powder (not on list) + 2 tablespoon olive oil (not on list) + 4oz water

1 medium mabong fried + half scoop four-angles beans friend in santan

Forced myself to eat though I hardly had any appetite. It's going to be a looong skip lunch day.

Exercise :

10 minutes simplified Tabata, then 15 minutes walk to personalized music

Today's set was Superman to Plank/Squat to Plyo Lunge and Mountain Climbers to Burpees/Tough Jacks.

Dinner (late, 10.00pm) :

1 medium chicken breast roasted + big scoop of four-angles beans fried in santan

Neighbourhood kids were holding a barbecue party, so I had TWO dinners.

May have gone overboard this carb loading day :p

Detoxification :

SKIP! It had been raining/drizzling the whole day and the water is so cold!

There's no way I can draw a decently warm Epsom salt bath today!

Almost towards the end now.

Seen some physical changes, but the belly pooch is still there. 

In terms of energy, I don't feel bursting with it though more energetic than usual.

The daytime drowsiness still present because I'm still having a hard time going to bed early.

I figure that my hormones are still out of whack...