After learning to Breathe, I find myself with all this Energy without much idea on how to manipulate it. And when I do use it, I have no idea if I am doing anything with it at all and the effectiveness lies totally on faith.
Of course one can always call and confirm with an Adept, but when voiced out, the questions sound idiotic while the issues seem petty. Ustaz and Encik Usop are busy people so I feel very very guilty whenever I have to intrude on their already hectic life. Therefore, I try to bother them as little as possible but for my own learning experience, it is highly disadvantageous.
Cik Easy has been around Ustaz for almost two years now so he already knows what he’s about and all he needs from Ustaz is (hmm, how shall I phrase it?) a ‘license to kill’, or something to that effect. : P
Faisol and Cik Easy are rather tight, so they benefit from all that exercise and sparring with each other. While Abang Ipen, though lacking in confidence, actually surpass all three of us in terms of knowledge and experience.
I very much want to be an Auratsukai Adept but I feel like I’m left hanging. Unlike Cik Easy, I’m not one to go out and adventurously grab any learning opportunity I can get. I’m much more reserved and need more guidance. Sigh… all that energy but lacking much knowledge as well as experience to manipulate it. It’s like I’m all dressed up but having nowhere to go…